The Russell-P Project:

Never have Russell-P pick you up from the airport...

So my buddy Garett flew in from being in Europe yesterday and he asked me to pick him up. Big mistake. I have a tendency to act stupid and try to embarras people in public settings. Needless to say this was the case last night.

So I ended up walking to the baggage claim area looking for Garett when low and behold I see him with his back to me waiting for his bags. I instantly yell out "GARETT I MISSED YOU". I go running over to him like a mad man and start giving him hugs. All the people in the baggage area just look over like what the hell just happend. Needless to say a Garett is a very timid and mild creature that does not like to have attention called to it's self so this was a bit akward for him. :-)

Either way, I am glad you are back G-Dawg, now you just need to come out on Saturday and party club 1127 style with us.

Adreanaline Road Trip Part 1...

The first part of our road trip.

P.S. In true rock star fashion we some how lost the Monkey along the way. God rest the gentel orangutan... you will be missed but not forgotten.

The greatest gift God has ever given me...

This past weekend I played a show and one of my friends told me something that really stuck with me. She said, "Russell, when you are on stage your face just lights up and you smile the entire time. When you are jumping around your energy is amazing and I can tell you are in love with playing". You know what, she is right. The one thing I am in love with in this world is playing music on stage. Whenever I play music on stage all my fears melt away and the world I know disappears. I know it sounds so cliché but it's true.

I am amazed with myself at how far I have come along these last few months and this entire last year. I remember the first time I was on stage, it was at Sherlock's on West Grey, I was so nervous to play and I was just frightened being on stage in front of people. Even though there were only a handful of people there I just remember being terrified of it and I am sure I looked like an idiot up there on stage. Now I love being on stage. I love being able to be up there and have people watch what I do. This is something that these last few months have really started to come out in me. I have noticed that my comfort level on stage has progressed 100% in the past 2 months. I am not sure why I just know that it has. I now know what it is to be in love with something that you do and playing music is the only thing I think in this world that I can honestly say I love doing.

I am sure I look different and have a different personality to people when I am on stage then I do when I am off stage. These last couple of months I have had girls come up to me on stage and give me their numbers and this just blows my mind. I don't know why this is happening. Maybe it's because girls like guys in bands, I just don't know. What I do know is that if half those girls really knew who I was I doubt they would be running up to stage with their numbers written on napkins. I mean I am a huge dork. If I am at home and not playing my guitar I sit in front of the T.V. watching The Discovery Channel or reading a book. Ask my ex, she used to hate how addicted to The Discovery Channel I was. I hate to tell you this ladies but I am a huge nerd. If there is a T.V. show on about Aliens, volcanoes, sharks or anything nerdy like that I am going to be glued in front of the tube watching it. I have a feeling if these girls knew this about me they would not be giving me their numbers.

I don't know, I just feel like I am destined to play music and that something big is about to happen. What's so funny about that is, and don't tell my band this, I really am not that good of a bass player. I just get up there and jump around a lot and hope I hit the right notes. I don't think I could ever date someone that does not perform in some way. There is just something about someone who gets in front of people and performs that attracts me to them. The only thing with this feeling I have about something big happening is that I believe when you start to reach your goals and your dreams and you start to achieve things, if you don't have love then it's really kind of empty.

Today I have been to hell and back…

That’s right folks, today I ventured into the pits of hell. I went to the deepest and darkest depth of humanity and have returned a stronger person with a completely different outlook on life and society. No I was not literally in hell; although I have a feeling my cubical at work is a good representation of what hell is like, no folks I was at an even darker place then that. I was at a hell on Earth. Today, I was at the DMV.

This past weekend I unfortunately lost my drivers license in Austin. I say unfortunately because if I would have known what I would have had to go through to get a new one I would have super glued my license to my forehead so that I would never lose it. Well this morning I spent 3 hours at the DMV trying to get a new drivers license.

The DMV is one hell of a cross section of America cultures. As soon as I walked in I noticed that just about every country had a person in line representing them. In fact as soon as I got in the first line, yes the first line. At the DMV they have 3 separate lines that you have to wait in. I don’t know why they just don’t consolidate them and have one line but I guess that would just be too efficient. Either way as soon as I got in line I got the opportunity to learn a bit of Chinese. It just so happened that the lady at the front of the line was not too happy that she had to have her passport with her to get a drivers license seeing how her passport was back at home. She let off with a torrent of the Chinese language that I was not able to translate but by the tone of her voice I can only guess she was telling the DMV guy that she was the son of a motherless goat and that he had very tiny balls. I can assume this is what she was saying by the fact that she was making goat noises and jumping up and down while pointing at his genitala.

I also got to experience old black lady farts. For those who have never smelled old black lady farts before let me tell you what they smell like. Imagine the smell of the superdome after Hurricane Katrina and that is basically what it smelled like. There was this really old black lady in line behind me who kept on farting and just looking at me and smiling. Now I know it was her who was farting because these were some of the most hellishly, loud, wet, stinky farts I have ever smelled or heard. Now keep in mind I have heard some bad ones in my life, I was in a fraternity and I am also a fire fighter, both which are known for letting out some major butt gas.

I also learned today that when they say do not cross the yellow line, they really mean do not cross the yellow line. One little Hispanic man had the misfortune of not understanding English and ventured past the yellow line before his number was called. Needless to say he got a berating by the DMV lady like I have never heard in my life. This verbal onslaught caused this 6’1, 240 pound Hispanic construction worker to break down into tears. I felt for the guy, I really did.

Either way after 3 hours of this hell I am glad to finally be out of there. I can not even imagine someone waking up in the morning and saying to themselves, “You know what, I really need a job. I think I am going to go to the DMV and apply for a job”. Now that takes some major balls and I applauded you Miss DMV Worker.

Good news for me band...

We just recevied an email from a promotor we have been working with, she is one of the ones in charge of getting us sponsors. Well she just got back from a meeting with some people in Dallas on our behalf and they are interested in sponsoring us.

They are an energy drink company, I can't say the name of who yet, and this could be really good for us. Here is what she said about it.

(1.) But the deal is that you will have your own brand and
(2.) They will do ALL of the commericials and TV advertising to support the product which will also promote you and your website and album and show dates.
(3.) They will provide #100 t-Shirts, #100 hats and print materials per event as giveaways and to sale items.
(4) they will arrange a tour and some promotional dates for you guys and they want to have their products at each of your events.
(5.) In addition they will supply merchandising for ALL of your events and promotions.

This is a really big deal and could really lead to some good stuff for us. Plus we get a percentage of all the drinks sold and a percentage of all the cases of drinks sold. This is really cool, I think when we go up to Dallas for our shows in a few weeks we are going to go meet with them and discuss the details of it.

It's cool how out of no where great things start to happen.

Win a date with Russell-P on New Years Eve Contest? Oh crap this will be interesting...

That's right folks; the boys in the band have decided to put together a little contest that involves New Years Eve and a single guy in the band. Seeing how I am the only single guy in the band they have decided to nominate me for this little contest. Basically what it will be is if you win you will receive a free VIP pass to the 94.5 The Buzz BLT (Black, Tie, Lingerie) party hosted by Club Monkey and you will accompany me as my date to the party. The next day you will be taken out to a restaurant of your choice by me.

Right now they are in the works of getting 94.5 The Buzz to get in on this contest so it might turn into a pretty big deal. What do you guys think, sound like it's going to be a good contest?

P.S. If I have anything to say about it the contest will only be open to girls. Not that there is anything wrong with gay guys just it's not for me. In fact I support the gays, watch this if you don't believe me.

My Office...

So as much as I hate my job, and believe you me I hate it much like Osama Bin Laden hates little kittens. Trust me, he really hates them. Well as much as I hate my job I have to admit there is some funny stuff that happens around here.

For instance today I was having a meeting with a person in my cubical. Well I am sitting here meeting with her and every time I get a new email in Microsoft Outlook a little box pops up with the email message in it. So I am sitting here and this girl keeps reading my emails as they come in. She is being very obvious about it and I know she is reading it because her lips are moving as she reads it. Well wouldn't you know it I get an email from one of my buddies.

Of course the email is completely inappropriate for work. Basically it is him telling me what all sexually he did to this girl that he meet at the bar last weekend. Needless to say it was very graphic and involved whips, chains, a nine iron, a moose head, two midgets, a bottle of Jager not frozen, a school girl outfit that he wore (don't ask) and a 1978 vinyl record of Issac Hayes. So as I get this email I figure what the hell, this girl wants to be nosy go for it lady and I don't close the email for her to read. You should have seen this girl's face as she was reading this email it was priceless. Well when she gets done reading it I look at her and say, "Don't you wish you had friends like that, you want me to introduce you to him?" She just looked at me with these deer caught in a headlight look, got up, gathered her notebook and left my cubical. Good God I love Fridays.

Good Friends + Good Music + Good Crowd = Bad Ass Show

That's right folks; last night was a killer night playing with my band. We played a show out at Sherlock's on Westheimer and it was a blast!! They crowd last night was great or as you kids like to say "dawg it was da bomb". We were missing some of our old friends who used to come to all my shows but at the same time we have made some new ones that show up to most shows. I suppose that's how life works though; you grow away from some friends only to find new ones. The new ones don't replace the old ones but they help you move along.

One more side note. Someone asked me once why I write so much. The reason is because we are all born and then we start moving towards death and we are all going there. We are on this train and it's moving forward and the last stop is checking out. We are all living and dieing and going through the same shit these are just my stories and this is just life.

On a side note my guitar player Slade ended up meeting some old friends again. Hummm these friends are very interesting. In fact I have video from when we were in Austin of us talking with these two girls on the phone. It's always really tastefully when a girl is on speaker phone with the entire band and telling you this. I swear this is how the conversation went. "Yeah, you know I am like 5'8, big fake breast with a nice tight butt, wait... hold on one second. KIDS GET YOUR BUTT BACK IN THE TRAILER AND STOP PLAYING IN THE DITCH. Ok so like I was saying, I have a nice butt". That is the actually conversation that occurred while in Austin on the phone with these girls. Don't believe me, I will post the video of it soon and you can hear it for yourself. Well either way those girls showed up last night and I must say they lived up to every bit of the mental image of them I had in my head.

On a side note I got recognized yesterday. That's right; I got recognized as being the bass player for Adrenaline. I was downtown during lunch walking to get a bite to eat when this girl came running up to me and was like, "I know you, you are the bass player for Adrenaline. I love you guys, you rock". I thought that was pretty cool. It was the first time I got recognized for being in my band. Usually I am just recognized as that MySpace guy who does the peanut butter jelly time dance. I guess this means I am progressing in the world of being a Z list celebrity.

So for all those people who were at the show last night taking pictures please send them over to me. I never get a chance to take pictures at a show and since I am without a girlfriend, lets all say it together... Ahhhhhh poor Russell-P, well since I am without one I never get any pictures of me on stage. I mean come on, I have to have some pictures of me to show my grandkids when I am old and crusty. I can just see it now. My little grandchildren are all gathered around me and I am like, "This here is a picture of your grand pappy back in the day of his band. That's right little Timmy (Side Note: If my son names his son Timmy, I will kill him. Timmy is a dumb name) that girl dancing in front of me does look like a cheap hooker. Oh Timmy those were the days". Either way, if you have pictures of me from the shows can you please post them on my MySpace. http://www.myspace.com/txfirefighter That would be really cool.

It kind of sucks, the only bad thing about last night is that I did not get back to my apartment till 4:00 a.m. then on top of that I had to be at an 8:00 a.m. meeting here at work. That always makes for a fun day. Now I am acutally going to have to work till 6:00 p.m. tonight because we have some stuff that has to go on at work. Then Friday and Saturday we have shows also. It's times like these I wished I lived in or near downtown. This driving business is really starting to suck.

Side note, you want to know what the best feeling in the world is? Being on stage playing a song, then you start to bounce up and down and the entire crowd does it with you. That my friends is a feeling unlike anything you can ever experience. The feeling of knowing that everyone in the crowd is feeding off the energy and the vibe that you are putting out. Knowing that you control the crowd and that they are all watching you. That's the only true high in life.

Well here are a few pictures from the other night that I did get. And yes I am standing on the table in the first picture.

 

Those notes you wrote me
Ive kept them all
Ive given alot of thought
of how to write you back this fall
With every single letter,
in every single word,
There will be a hidden message
About a boy that loves a girl

Do you care if I
dont know what to say
Will you sleep tonight
or will you think of me
Will I shake this off,
pretend its all okay
That theres someone out there
who feels just like me
There is

This vacation's useless
These white pills aren't kind
I've given alot of thought
on this 13-hour drive
I miss the grinding concrete
Where we sat past 8 or 9
And slowly finished laughing
in the glow of our head lights
I've given a lot of thought
to the nights we use to have
The days have come and gone
Our lives went by so fast
I faintly remember breathing
on your bedroom floor
Where I laid and told you
but you sweared you loved me more

Do you care if I
dont know what to say
Will you sleep tonight
or will you think of me
Will I shake this off,
pretend its all okay
That theres someone out there
who feels just like me
There is

Do you care if I
dont know what to say
Will you sleep tonight
or will you think of me
Will I shake this off,
pretend its all okay
That theres someone out there
who feels just like me

Time to play...

I love playing Sober by Tool on stage rumor has it that I look hot playing the solo at the start of it.

One year has come and gone...

So November 1st will be the one year anniversary of my father having cancer and having his kidney removed. He is going in tomorrow for his MRI to make sure that it did not spread so if you guys have a minute just say a little prayer for him to make sure it's all ok.

It's amazing how fast time goes by when you don’t think about it. Maybe it's because I have just had a lot of stuff happen this year that it makes it fly by so quick. With in one year I have found out my father had cancer, I fell in love, I moved in with someone and then out, joined a band, have seen that band take off and go farther then I ever thought it would, somehow become a proud parent of a kitten, had a slight medical scare, relearned that I am a great leader and have found the church again. It's amazing how much good and bad stuff can happen in a year when you stop and think about it. I was not even aware that it had really been a year till my Mom called me and told me about my fathers MRI.

This makes me wonder what in the world next year holds in store for me. It's kind of weird but I think of now as being the New Year and not in January just because this is the time when so much stuff happened to me. As weird as it is when I found out about my father that was the scariest moment I have ever had. That's kind of how I mark the year now I suppose. Maybe that's why I am not really looking forward to New Years Eve. It's just kind of weird to think about all the great and bad things that happened to me this year. The one thing I do know is that my family and my friends, my true friends, have always been there for me during the high tides and the low tides and that is what's important.

I know that from this point on this next year is just going to be amazing for me. Maybe it's because I know my band is going to do great. Maybe it's because I am finally starting to grow up and mature a bit. Who knows? All I do know is that it's going to be a great year and for all my friends who stuck with me it's going to be fun. Trust me; you guys know I am going to take care of you when all the good happens and you guys all know that. When it happens you guys are all going to the top with me.

On a side note I was thinking and this is what I came up with. When you reach your dreams and all your goals if you don’t have anyone to share it with and if you don’t have love then it’s really kind of empty.

What in the hell is wrong with my cat...

So once again last night my cat ended up throwing up. This time it was all over my bed and on my covers, now that really sucks. I don't know what's wrong with her. She has thrown up like 5 times in 2 weeks. Is this a normal thing for a cat? I have not changed her diet since I have gotten her and I have stopped giving her treats about 2 weeks ago. I just don't know why she is doing it. I mean she does not act sick she just throws up and then goes about her business. It's not hairballs because it looks like chewed up food. So who out there can help me? Who knows what's wrong with my cat? I wish I had more friends with cats so I could ask them but I only have one friend with a cat and all the rest have dogs.

She does chew on a lot of plastic crap we have in the house. Is that bad for her?

On a side note my band is playing at Sherlock's on Westheimer tonight if anyone wants to come out and watch. We also have two more shows this weekend for those who are looking for something to do.

I love this beanie...

 

A Day To Be Alone

She said I wonder when
It'll be my day
Cause I'm not too far from breaking down
And all I've got are screams inside
But somehow they come out in a smile
And I wondered if I'll always feel this way, this way

Tell me about those nights you stay awake
Tell me about those days you hated me
Tell me how you'd rather die alone than being stuck here with me
And maybe you've fallen down
And maybe you, you took the long way home
Baby, you could never love you like me
And one day this will fade away
In the mirror, you'll see your smiling face
And standing next to you will always be me, be me

One day you're gonna see things my way
You gave me so much room that I can breathe
All I've got is pictures of you
I was nothing before and I started with you
But for some reason, it's supposed to be that way, that way

Tell me about those nights you stay awake
Tell me about those days you hated me
Tell me how you'd rather die alone than being stuck here with me
And maybe you've fallen down
And maybe you, you took the long way home
Baby, you could never love you like me
And one day this will fade away
In the mirror, you'll see your smiling face
And standing next to you will always be me, be me

If I could shrink it down
And put it in your hands
We made it hurt so much
I can't forget the past
Just tell me what to say, show me what to do
Then I could forgive me and I could forgive you

Tell me about those nights you stay awake
Tell me about those days you hated me
Tell me how you'd rather die alone than being stuck here with me
And maybe you've fallen down
And maybe you, you took the long way home
Baby, you could never love you like me
And one day this will fade away
In the mirror, you'll see your smiling face
And standing next to you will always be me, be me

Good news for my band...

That's right there is some good news coming out for my band. Last night we had a company come in who is looking at sponsoring us. They are going to make custom leather covers for all our amps and speakers. They will be all red leather with black on the front of the amps with our logo on them. They are also looking at building us custom mic stands and some other really cool stuff. All in all it should run about $10,000. Good news is they are not charging us for it they are just giving it to us. Also we are in the works with Budweiser and getting them to become one of our sponsors. If we can get that one nailed down that will be huge for us.

We also talked to the people who are running the Lone Star Bike Rally last night, and they informed us that when we play our show there will be 80,000 people there to watch. That's hell of a lot of people. As of now I have not played in front of more then a couple of thousand so this will be a huge step up. Grant it I know I will play for more people then this when we make it big (Side Note: I know we will make it huge) but this should be good until then. Even if they are off on their numbers by 50% that's still 40,000 people. That's just a crazy number for me to think of. Either way they are really excited about having us play. As you can see from the link they even have us on their page saying breaking news we are playing.

Also we are playing the biggest New Years Party in Houston this year. It is the 94.5 The Buzz BLT (Black Tie Lingerie) party. There are also talks of a huge national act coming in and us opening for them. I can't tell you who the band is yet but it is bigger then Blue October who there was earlier talks about playing this year. Either way this is a huge show and a blast to play. We played it last year and it's so much fun just because the crowd is just pumped to be there because tickets are pretty hard to come by. The only thing that really kind of sucks is last year my girlfriend at the time was out of town for New Years so I did not get to spend it with her. Now this year we are broken up so I need to find me a girlfriend before New Years. I really don't want to have to spend this one alone also.

We also have a company that is making custom guitar picks for us with our logos on them. We always get asked for guitar picks after shows so now people will have our custom ones. They should be in with in a week or two so now when you ask for my pick you will actually get a custom one.

So this is all some really great news for the band and I am super pumped up. We are also working on our originals right now and they are sounding great!! It is a mixture of Hoobastank and The All American Rejects is how I would classify it. We are planning on trying to get into the studio early next year and CD made. Then with our connections that we have with local radio and some DJ's who knows where we will go from there. All I know is the sky is the limit for us and we are all reaching for it.

Take Russell-P to your job for the day...

So I am getting pretty tired of my job. I don't know what it is about it that I don't like I just know I don't like it. Maybe it's because I don't get to interact with people and I pretty much just get locked in a cubical all day. I spend 8 hours a day locked in a 8x8 little hobbit hole. It kind of feels like I am in prison minus the man on man rape.

Either way I have to figure out what it is in life that I want to do. This is something that scares the hell out of me. In fact to be honest with you guys I have been more depressed these last couple of months then I have ever been in my entire life. No, it's not because I got dumped like I know a lot of you are thinking. It has been a number of things that have been going on in my life that I think have put me at the point I am at now. Some of it medical reasons that really only one person knows about and I thank her from the bottom of my heart for being there for me when I was going through it even though she was on the other side of the world at the time. I know my close friends have noticed the changes in me lately and I thank one of them for always being there to listen to me when I need them, thank you.

I just feel really weird like when you go to a party where you don't know anyone and you feel really out of place and awkward, well that's pretty much how I feel everyday. I don't know what it is but I have felt that way most of my life. For some weird reason I don't feel like I am a part of the crowd but more standing on the outside of the world looking in. Wow, that sounds really hippyish doesn't it?

I don't know what it is but I just don't feel like I doing what I should be doing with my life. Kind of like if you were to start a movie half way through it then you would not really know what was going on well that's kind of how I feel about my life right now. Like I am missing out on something that I should have been doing but I am just not sure what it is. I know this all sounds really weird but it's just how I have felt for a while. Really the only time I feel comfortable and like I am where I am supposed to be at is when I am on stage playing music. Weird isn’t it? In a strange way I know I should be in front of millions of people playing music and trying to entertain people for a living. That's the only time I am really happy is when I am making people smile and laugh.

Well I did not intend for this blog to become a therapy session for me. In fact I was going to write about how there should be a take Russell-P to work day like they have take your daughter to work. That way I can see what all is out there to do and maybe find something I like. Well for those who have read down this far and listened to what I said thank you. I will try not to write serious blogs like this very often.

My bands pictures...

My band and I had a photo shoot last week and we got a few of the pictures back so I figured I would post some for you guys. Personally I like the one of me painting the best.

     

 

My pictures from Austin...

I have posted the pictures from my past weekend in Austin with my band. For those who want to see them.  On a side note some of the guys in my band got drunk and started sending text messages to people on my phone, if you got one that did not sound like it was from me let me know. They erased some out of my sent folder but the ones that were still their I resopned to the people and let them know it was not me. So if I did not respond to you and you got a weird one let me know.

http://russell.typepad.com/photos/austin_6th_street/index.html

hey

I miss you...

I am writing a new song... It will be a hit!!!

I am in the process of writing a new song right now. In fact the band is at dinner and I am writing it, the song is called "I am in love with the girl from the sushi bar". Oh yes this is a song based on a true experience right now. We are eating sushi and good Lord every where you look there are hot asian women serving us. The band has decided we are going on tour to Japan. Konichiwa bitches!!!

What I have learned in Austin...

So I have learned a few things while being up here in Austin. I have learned that there are a lot of different people in the world and a lot of them are really good people. I have learned that good friends are important and when you find a good set of friends that you should do all you can to keep them in your life. I have learned that chicks dig guys in bands all though not always are the guys in the band going to dig the chicks. I have learned that I dig Austin and should move up here. I have learned that Austin has an aboundunce of Asian women who like to talk to white guys. I have learned that when you sleep on the hotel floor 2 feet from the ac unit you tend to shake a lot at night and wake up with really cold feet. I also learned that bar soap does not work for shampoo.

The Adrenaline Boys and the hunt for the missing driver licenses...

So my band and I are in Austin and we went out on 6th street last night. Well after much drinking and running around playing rockstar it ends up that some how 36 percent of us lost our driver license. Don't know how that one happened. On a side note I did get to climb on top of the hotel roof to hide a lamp that we broke. I will tell you that story latter all though lets just say my hand is now cut but it was fun. Oh yeah and I bought a monkey from some guy at a gas station who had it in his car for $10 that's another good story and I got it on video. See you guys should be here with me I have fun when I go on tour. If I sent you drunk texts and calls last night sorry about that one... You know how I get sometimes :-)

Let this be a lesson to you...

So last night I ended up rolling out to a country bar with my roommate, a country bar you say, well yes a country bar I say. Contraire to popular belief, Russell-P is actually a hell of a country dancer. Took two years of it in college all I am missing is the boots and the cowboy hat.

It was kind of funny also. I ended up wearing this pink shirt I have, a pair of cool looking ripped up jeans, a white belt and white shows to a country bar. Keep in mind all the guys there were in the nut hugger jeans and cowboy hats and I stood out like a black guy at a KKK rally. It was funny as hell because all the cowboys kept looking at me and shooting me funny looks. Well I ended up dancing the night with nothing but really hot chicks and I ended up dancing good. I could just see it in their little eyes they were thinking, "This guy is in a pink shirt... FAG. Oh wait, that gay guy has a hot chick dancing with him. Holy crap, did you see that spin he did? Damn, maybe I need to exchange this American Flag shirt for a pink one. Damn I guess that guy was not gay after all"

Either way, we went out to this country because a couple of his friends were going to be up there from work. We end up getting to this place and we ran into a few chicks that he knows and I kind of know. Well either way these chicks are really hot and are super cool girls. We ended up hanging out and dancing with them all night but that's not the point of this blog.

The point of this blog is this. There were 4 guys who were super built and pretty good looking guys trying to hang out with the girls. No I am not gay but I am not blind either and I will admit when I am out classed in the looks department. Either way these 4 guys kept trying to talk and impress these girls the only problem is this, they had no personality. The girls ended up hanging out with us all night and dancing with us because we might not be the hottest guys in there but we know how to have fun.

I was dancing all night long and just acting stupid with the girls while the built guys just stood there drinking their beers and I guess fantasizing about doing steroids and working out. If a country song came on the girls would grab me to go country dance with, if a hip hop song came on the girls would grab me to go dance hip hop with them. So are you guys starting to see the point to this blog? It does not always matter how built or good looking you are, some girls out there will see a guy for his personality and love it.

That's what I think I have going for me. No matter where I am at or who I am with I am going to always try and make people laugh and just have a good time. That's what I am about, I am about getting out there and acting stupid and not caring what people think but just having a good time. I think that is the best thing I have to offer a women, just the fact that I will always be the one who makes you smile and laugh.

So now I am getting ready to head up to Austin with my band. Good Lord this is going to be a fun weekend. The Adrenaline Boyz, or as I like to call us the Awesome Kids, spending a weekend partying and playing in Austin, now that's going to be fun. Tonight we are just hanging out on 6th street because we don't have a show till tomorrow. All I got to say is, Austin get ready to party.

Yeeeaaaahhhhh haaaaaa

So my roomate dragged me out to a country bar with ome of his friends who are chicks. Good lord I forgot how to country dance but you know what its $1 drinks any kind all night long. All I got to say is yeah haw cowboy!

Tiz Better to be in a relationship, or be dating... that is the question.

So I don't know what it is but this go around of me being single, that's what I call the points in my life where I am single, go arounds. Well this go around has been different then my past ones. Maybe it's because I am getting older and more interested in settling down and looking to start a family then I have been in the past. Either way, I have gotten to know more people and gone out more in the last few months then I have ever in my life. I don't know what it is. Maybe it's because I am in a band and I get to meet a lot of people, maybe it's because I am getting my confidence up and girls notice that, maybe it's that sometimes when I go out I am not afraid to just walk up and start talking to girls. I am not sure what it really is.

What I do know is this. I am not a huge fan of this dating game. In fact I can't really stand it. I am the kind of guy that likes to find a girl and spend his time with her. I love to be able to come home from work and see that special someone. I love to walk in the door and give them a hug and kiss and tell them that I love them and they are my everything. I love being able to date my best friend and I be her best friend also. Sound's kind of gay, I know but that's the thing I like to do. I love to be able to spend weekend's laying in bed and just hold on to that person and lay their together. I love being able to sit at home and get Mexican food to go and sit in front of the TV watching our favorite programs together. I am just not the kind of guy who is big on dating a bunch of different girls.

I suppose I am the kind of guy that has to be in a relationship because I love sharing my life with someone. I am a big believer in the theory of find your partner and go through life together because it makes it just that much more fun. I suppose that is why I am not a big fan of all this dating business. I mean sure it's cool to go out and feel wanted but at the same time I really miss having that person that you could go to and know they love you. I miss having the person that you could call up and tell your fears and hopes to and not worry about them not judging you. I know I will find it again but it's just such a tired game and I wonder will it will stop and how it will all play out.

Oh well, I know I should be happy for what I have. I know some guys who never have girls talk to them. In fact they really don't know how to talk to girls and they never end up in good relationships. Personally I would like to thank Zach Morris for teaching me how to talk to women. AC Slater for teaching me how to dance. The Fresh Prince for teaching me how the African American side of America lives. And ALF for teaching me never to discriminate people even if they are 3 feet tall, full of fur and from another planet. Either way I do know that I am blessed to have what I have in my life and I know that I will find that girl who will love me for who I am and want to spend the rest of her life with me.

On a complet side note, I have been playing my guitar for about 2 hours every night and I have gotten pretty good at it. I look forward to the next girlfriend that I have playing songs for her on the guitar, I hear chicks dig that.

This basically sums up the life that I want to have.

Do you remember when we first met? I sure do
It was some time in mid September
You were lazy about it, you made me wait around
I was so crazy about you, I didn't mind

So I was late for class, I locked my bike to yours
It wasn't hard to find, you painted a princess crown on
I guess that I was afraid that if you rolled away
You might not roll back my direction really soon

But I was crazy about you then and now
The craziest thing of all, over ten years have gone by
And you're still mine, we're locked in time
Let's rewind

Do you remember when we first moved in together?
The piano took up the living room
You played me boogie-woogie I played you love songs
You'd say we're playing house now you still say we are

We built our getaway up in a tree we found
We felt so far away but we were still in town
Now I remember watching that old tree burn down
I took a picture that I don't like to look at

Well all these times they come and go
And alone don't seem so long
Over ten years have gone by
We can't rewind, we're locked in time
But you're still mine
Do you remember?"

Who I would like to meet...

I'd love to have lunch with Bill Clinton. I bet he and I would have a nice long meal where we started off with salad as we discussed his '92 campaign. He'd probably order wine, which would be awkward 'cause it'd be lunch and I'd be a dude, but his affable manner and cordial demeanor would diffuse any uncomfortable rumblings from the other patrons. As we sipped our wine (white, I bet) I'd talk to him about how he managed the crazy economy of the 90's, and why he thought it wasn't sustained. He'd probably point out that no boom can come without a bust, and he'd be right. By meal's end we'd walk around the grounds sampling some fine brandy which would go quite nicely with the Cuban cigars he had smuggled in, laughing about that whole Lewenski thing.

I'd love to talk to Colin Powell about how he could've let that whole Iraq thing happen. Brunch with Van Gogh at his zaniest would have been fresh. I'd love to have drinks with Jean Beaudrillard and ponder the substantial vaccousness of America. If I met Ghandi I'd rub his belly in my best approximation of the Ignorant Frat Boy.

I'd like to meet up with Fairuza Balk and just stare into her eyes without speaking, pay the bill and calmly walk away.

Shooting up with Sid and W.S. Burroughs in one room would be a meeting I'd take (minus the heroin). Killing time with Bob Marley wouldn't suck, as he'd roll up a huge fatty and we'd talk about the nature of art, communication and love. I'd request the minutes from my meetings with Hammurabi, Jesus, Budda, Gengis Kahn and Keeanu Reeves.

I'd like to meet the sisters Simpson and Duff all at once, Hilary & Haylie Duff and Jessica & Ashlee Simpson; have kind of a round table thing where we'd push aside the fluff and got down to the nitty gritty nuts and bolts political and philosophical issues I know they're all dying to talk about. I read an essay by Ashlee once called "The Theory of Forgetting and the Problem of Matter" that blew my mind and I can't remember which Duff wrote "Capturing the Sinai: The Modern Ramifications of Isralei Success in the Arab Peninsula", but it really opened my eyes to the real politik of the mid-east region.

If I met Clay Aiken I'd pinch his cheeks and wish him the best of luck. I'd like to meet up with the hombre that invented burritos, buy him one from Taco Cabana and ask him what he thought of his progeny now. Were I ever to meet Scott Baio I'd thank him for his exceptional work in Charles in Charge, to which I owe the bulk of my social skills. I'd like to meet others, but they frankly don't warrant mention here, excepting how much I wish I could hang out with Tiffany Amber Theissen.

What the hell did I just step in?!?!

This is one thing you never want to say within 30 seconds of waking up. Well guess what? This is exactly what I shouted out 30 seconds after waking up today.

So I had the ever so great fortune of walking into my bathroom this morning to take my morning shower and pee. Usually it's in the other order unless I am just really lazy then I just pee in the shower. (Side Note: That was just a joke; I really don't pee in the shower. I only did that at my ex girlfriends house. That also is a joke, I promise I never pissed in your shower)

Well as I stumble into my bathroom this morning completely blind, yes with out my contacts I am almost legally blind, ask my ex she knows. Well as I stumble into the bathroom I suddenly feel my left foot sink into something that is nice and squashy and begins to squeeze through my toes. I instantly start checking off things that it could be. I ask myself, "Russell-P, did I leave playdo on the floor... no. What about pudding, did I eat pudding in here last night and leave it laying around... no. Hummm. I wonder what the hell is currently being squashed between my toes." Well needless to say I figured out what the substance was. It appears as if my kitten decided to leave me a little gift of vomit on my bathroom rug.

Now keep in mind I am new to this whole owning a kitten business and in fact when one becomes a proud owner of a kitten they do not come with an owner's manual like a car. In fact when you pick one up at the pet store they just kind of hand it to you and say have fun. Well I ended up buying my kitten some kitty treats that my ex used to give to her cat. Keep in mind her cat is 10 years old and mine is only 3 months. Well thanks to my ex who is way smarter then I am when it comes to this kitten business and who really does do a great job of keeping care of her cat she informed me that I should not be giving my kitten those treats. She said that she was too young for them. Well chalk that up to bad parenting because I had no clue about that one. I used to give her cat 3 treats a day when I came home so I am just glad I did not start giving my kitten 3 treats.

Either way that is why she was throwing up for a while I believe. Well this morning she threw up again and I have no clue as to why it was. I have not been giving her treats and she has only been eating her Science Diet kitty food. So I ask you people, what in the hell would cause a kitten to throw up? Does anyone know what would be the cause of this?

Video Blog: The Dangers of MySpace

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I really almost died this morning...

This was kind of scary. I was driving into work this morning and I came closer to being killed then I ever have in my entire life. So for those who don't know the weather here in Houston is awful. It is sever thunderstorms with really heavy rain. Well I was driving south on I-45 heading into downtown when I must have hit a patch of water/oil on the road. When I hit it my car starts to spin and I go into a 360. Luckily I was not going very fast maybe 30 miles when it happened. Well I was in the left lane and it spun me over about two lanes. Sure enough in the far right hand lane there was an 18 wheeler carrying a bulldozer doing I would guess around 60. I ended up missing getting hit by him head on by about 3 feet. Keep in mind I drive a little Mitsubishi Eclipse convertible that would have been destroyed if I would have gotten hit by this truck. I would have put my chance of living that one at zero percent if it would have hit me. There is no way in the world I would have survived getting hit by that truck. It really makes me stop and think about things when stuff like this happens. Life really is short and can be gone in a minute. Let the ones you love and care about know it before it is too late and one of you is gone.

My friends are the bomb...

So I am sitting at Fazolis with about 8 of my friends and I must say my friends are the best in the world. They really are great people and they make me who I am. They are the reason I am the way I am and they really are the best. I know that's one thing that people who date me love about me is my friends. We really are a great bunch of people and there are not a lot of good people out there like us. I really am blessed.

My first tattoo...

So after much debate, much thinking and a few drunken nights of wondering, I have decided on the tattoo that I am going to get this Thursday. I have decided to go with a cross in between my shoulder blades. Now I know a lot of you are wondering why the cross, well I will tell you why.

For a good part of my life I when I was younger I was an extremly religious person. I went to church every Sunday and I had a great relationship with God. Well when I was growing up I had a few things in my life happen to me that really made me start to lose my faith. Then when I got to college a few other things happend that made me kind of drift away from the church. Well finally I have gotten back to where I belong. I have gotten back to where I have a good relationship with God and I am not afriad to admit it. The symbology behind me getting the cross tattoo on my back is for the fact that no matter what happens in my life, I know God/Jesus will always be their watching my back for me. This will also remind me that I turned my back on him before and for me to never do it again. That's the reason I am getting that tattoo. Here is a picture of the one I am going to get. Nothing to fancy because I am getting it for the meaning and not to have a cool tattoo. I am also going to get my other ear pierced when I am up in Austin.

On a side note I am getting ready to go do a photoshoot with the band and I will let you guys see the pictures when we get them back. It should be a fun time and maybe I will be able to finally get somenew pictures on my MySpace page.

Video Blog: October 14th

See you when I am famous...

That's how I used to sign my yearbooks back when I was in high school and you know what, I believe it now more then I did then. Tonight my band had a show and I have to say, I have a great feeling about this band. I know everyone says that about their band but this is something special. We had a packed crowd that was crazy. They stayed all night long and it was like we were freaking rock stars. We had people come up after the show and ask for autographs, people wanting our guitar picks, we even had about 9 different really hot girls come up and say they wanted to be groupies. No, I am not into that so I did not partake but it's crazy to have that happen.

For some reason I know this band is going to make it and we will be famous. We had so many people come up and give us high fives and want to hear our original songs. Well we are working on them now and I must say they sound awesome!! We are not going to play them out until we have them 100% perfect because that is how we do things. We have some really big shows lined up that we are going to be playing that are going to be great. I can not wait until this all starts to happen which it already is beginning to. This is going to be one hell of a ride is all I have to say. It's weird but this is the only thing in the world that I am positive of. I really do think God is going to grant me this one wish because it is something that we have all pushed ourselves 100% to do and it is something that we know he has a hand in.

Also their is something about you girls that you can just tell when a guy is single because I have been hit on more this last week then I think I have ever in my life. Maybe it's that I have never been single in the band or I don't know what it is either way it's pretty crazy. I am not used to having good looking girls come up to me and talk to me. Kind of a new experience.

Either way, after tonight I am ready for this and I know it's going to happen. Watch out world Adreanline is coming to a radio near you.

A wee bit of a confidence boost…

So for those who don’t know me very well you might not know this or not but I have a slight issue with low self esteem. I don’t know what caused it or where it started from, maybe it's from the fact that I was a huge nerd in Junior High and High School and I got picked on all the time for being a nerd. I really did not bust out of my shell till late in college and by then I guess I was already set in my ways. Well either way it is an issue that I am working on. Well these last couple of days I have had me a few confidence boosters that have started to help.

So I have had a few girls come up and talk to me lately that I never in a million years would think would be interested in me. A few of these girls have been the kind that usually the guys just stand off in the corner at a club and look at and say, "Man, I wish I could talk to that girl she is freaking hot". Well guess what, not only did I talk to that girl but she came up and talked to me to start with. It was pretty cool and I could defiantly have used the confidence boost.

Then last night at my bands show there was this girl standing over to the side just watching us. This girl was really hot, all the guys in the band kept looking at her and were like, man that girl is freaking smoking hot. Well I did not think anything of it and I figured she was here with some dude or was checking out one of the other guys in the band. In between one of the sets I took off outside because I tend to just chill on my own during our breaks. Well I come back in and my guitar player is like, "Dude, that super hot chick wants to meet you. She was asking who you were and if you were single and what not". At first I did not believe him because it is defiantly not above us to bust each others balls and just mess around like that. Sure enough the chick is looking at me while I play and smiling. Long story short she really was interested in me. Who would have thunk it?

So in the span of a few days, I know of 4 really hot chicks who are digging on me or who think I am hot. I was pretty stoked about it just due to the fact that my confidence could really use something like that and that really was what I needed right now. In fact one of the chicks who I met at the show does bikini modeling on the side. I suppose that is always a plus to boost the old self esteem. Now if I can only find a girl who loves to dance or play music I will be set. I don't think I can date a girl who does not enjoy performing in front of a crowd of people or a girl who is not into the arts. I am just too much into that stuff for a regular girl I think.

On a side note this Thursday I am going to Austin with my band for some shows. I plan on actually getting a tattoo on my back while I am there. I am trying to find a really cool looking tattoo that has to do with music, any suggestions?

For all the women...

For all the women out there who walked out on my life and who knew I was not the one for them... you just threw away the best guy in the world. You just threw away someone who would have bent over backwards to do whatever it was in his power to make you smile. You just threw away the boyfriend who always makes you laugh. You just threw away the guy who loved you unconditionally no matter what your past was or what happend while we were together. You just threw away the guy who was not afraid to stand up in a crowd, point at you and yell at the top of his lungs "There is the women who I love and who I want to marry!! There is the girl who makes me smile and who I want to make happy!!" You just threw away the guy who is one in a billion. You just threw away your chance at finding happiness with someone who would have been your everything. You just threw away being with someone who was your best-friend. You just took a chance on the fact that maybe, just maybe I was not the one who was right for you. You also just broke my heart again. Sleep with that thought tonight.

Or are you going to be, my new girlfriend…

That’s right folks Russell-P has a new girlfriend and I am free to say it on here because I know she does not get on here to read this. In fact I have been seeing this girl for the last 2 months today; it’s our 2 month anniversary, yes I know how sweet and mushy. Either way I am completely happy with this girl, she is the best!!! I never thought I would be able to bond to a girl this quick but it’s crazy because it happened.

The feelings I have for her are feelings that I have not had in a long time. We have spent almost every night together and I absolutely love sleeping next to her. In makes me smile so big when I wake up in the morning and she is right beside me in my bed. I love spoiling her and getting her everything she ever wants or needs, although that is a trait about me that I love. I really do enjoy spoiling people and making them feel special. Even my friends like her and that is something that is REALLY important to me.

Either way I am super happy with this girl. The affection is there, she loves to give me kisses, and the friendship is there. I know that she has unconditional love for me even though she does not say it and I know that she would do anything for me. So you guys want to know who she is and where I meet her at. Well I meet her at Pet Smart and her name is Willy T. She is my little kitten and today is our two month anniversary together. I love you baby!!

Here's to the night...

So last night was a lot of fun. Thanks to all the people who tuned in and had fun hanging on my cam with me and just acting stupid. It was a lot of fun getting to chat with everyone and getting to hear a lot of people’s stories about what’s going on in their life. It was a lot of fun and we should all do it again sometime. And yes, thankfully last night I made no drunken calls. Yeah Russell-P!!

So I am pretty excited about this Sunday. I have a friend who invited me out to a new church and I am really excited about trying it out. Hopefully I will enjoy it and find a church where I can feel at home at. So far I have found one but I don’t know if going there is the best thing for me right now. I have been doing good and have gone to a different church every Sunday for the last couple of weeks. I figure by the time I find a church I feel comfortable at I will be able to write a book about all the different church’s here in Houston.

I am also excited because my rock star life kicks back into high gear this week. The band and I have 3 shows this weekend starting tonight. For those who don’t know me very well, being on stage is one of the things I love most in life. I love to get up there jump around, say stupid stuff, mess with the crowd and basically act like a moron on stage see I am just as God made me… a idiot. Either way that’s the thing that I love to do more then anything in life.

So I hope everyone has a great day. Yes I really do mean every one of you. I am thinking about you all and I miss some of you, you know who.

Live performance by Russell-P on his cam tonight...

That's right folks, I have been sitting here playing my guitar and my cam has been on. Well there has been a few of you who said they enjoyed watching me play so....

I will be drinking Kirin Ichiban because I am so cultured. :-D

TONIGHT ONLY...
RUSSELL-P AND HIS ACOUSTIC GUITAR LIVE AT CLUB 1127...
PLAYING ALL HIS FAVORITE SONGS DRUNK ON HIS WEB CAM...
DON'T MISS OUT, IT WILL BE A SITE TO SEE...

So Russell-P, what’s embarrassing to you…

Could it be sitting in a meeting with your entire department seated right across from the new VP who called this meeting to introduce himself to the team when all of a sudden your stomach will not stop growling? Hummm yeah I would say that is embarrassing and I would also say that just happened to me. I could not help it; I am freaking starving right now. I was so hungry in there that I kept reaching in my pocket to get lint out and eat it in hopes that my stomach would stop making noise.

Oh well. I will soon stop this hunger by having my weekly Sushi night tonight. That’s right; it’s the happiest night of the week for me when I get to chow down on Sushi. This is the night that a few friends and I always get together at this local Sushi (is Sushi supposed to be capitalized?) joint where it is 25% off and gorge ourselves on Philadelphia rolls and all other kinds of raw meat. It is oh so yummy. I also tend to have me a few things of sake, which tonight I will not get drunk on. Ok I might get a slight buzz on. Ok screw it, I might get completely hammered on and then make drunk dial calls all night long. So if you are one of those fortunate or unfortunate, depends on how you look at it, people who get a call tonight just tell me I am dumb and hang up on me. There is no need for you guys to encourage this kind of behavior on my part.

Here's one in your pink eye...

So I don't know what the hell is wrong with me but I think I am dying. For the last couple of months I have been getting sick all the time and I don't get it. In fact right now, I have freaking pink eye. That's right, pink eye. How am I supposed to impress the ladies with freaking pink eye? That's certainly not a way to get hooked up with a chick.

These last couple of months I have missed more work then I have the entire year, which kind of sucks because I wish I would have missed this many days when I had a girlfriend so I could have at least chilled at home with her. Now I am missing these days and all I do is sit at home sick with no one to make chicken broth for me. I love having chicken broth when I am sick.

Either way, man this really sucks always being sick. I am wondering what it is that is causing me to be sick. I know a year ago I had a problem with mold in my apartment bathroom. They ended up having to come in there and rip out my bathroom walls and try to get rid of all the mold. What's scary is that the maintenance guys are the one that came and did this and they are not the smartest of people. I am wondering if now that I am living back home if that is what is making me sick. If so that's not a good thing because I know black mold can make people pretty sick and even kill you. So I suppose if you guys get on here and I don't have anything written you can assume that it was black mold and I am lying in my apartment dead.

If it does kill me then Garett you can have my computer. Boob you can have my TIVO and my kitten, take care of my Willy, she likes to be scratched behind her right ear. I suppose whoever wants it can have my car. Other then that I think the rest of the stuff I have is crap and no one would want it. Well I suppose someone might want my collection of Mexican wrestling mask and my set of bagpipes that I never got to work so I will let you guys fight over them.

Not ready for the nationals...

So tonight my roomate Boob (no that is not his God given name) and one of my best friends Garett (yes that is his God given name and we make fun of him for it everyday) decided to go to the gym and test out our skills at racketball. Ok first off let me say that none of us have played this game since we were in college. That was about 4 years ago and needless to say, damn, we really suck. It took us 45 mintues to play one game to 21. Well we probalby should not have had Chick-Fa-Lay right before we went to play.

Either way it was a blast. All though we suck at it and I think every one of us sustained some kind of injury, mine was from the fact that after I won I took off my shirt like that soccer chick and slid on my knees across the court, needless to say when you slide on the court it hurts like HELL!!! Boob ended up busting up his knees and his fingers and Garett some how managed to hurt his balls, ok well I made that part up but I did almost kick him in the nuts one time when he kept making me try to hit the ball with my backhand.

So as I was saying we all really suck at this game but we are going to try and get better at it. One day I think I will be good enough for the National Racqet Ball Team. Oh yes, one day little kids will have Baseball cards with me on it holding my racket and balls. Wow that sounds kind of dirty. They will sell jerseys of me at footlocker and I will be bigger then the Rockets. Oh yes, I will have dancers that perform for me at all my matches and I will be as the kids say, the bomb. Mark my words. Now I just have to learn to play.

Out sick today...

This sucks, I hurt my eye last week and it has only gotten worse. Today it is swollen shut and hurts like hell that is why I am not going to work today. Man this sucks I need someone to take care of me.

The goodbye song...

I wish I could have hugged you;
Just one last time tonight;
and felt your arms around me just this one last time.
I would have held on to you so tight;
Like we were the last two in the world:
I would have held you in my arms and told you that I loved you.
The world was ours for good;
We could have given it our all;
But sometimes things just don't end up the way you want them.

Sleep with me again;
I long to feel your body beside me;
I want to wrap my legs around you.
Sleep with me again;
I will give you all you need;
Baby just hold on to me one last time.

I wish you would have known;
That goodbyes last forever;
Even though sometimes we don't want them to be.
Princess this is it;
Our time here now is over;
I wish you would have just chosen to stay with me.
I know I'll dream of you tonight;
And in my peacefull slumber;
I know I will hold you in my arms once again.

Sleep with me again;
I long to feel your body beside me;
I want to wrap my legs around you.
Sleep with me again;
I will give you all you need;
Baby just hold on to me one last time.

Just one last time is all I need.

Yo...

Nothing like sitting at home getting drunk on Bacardi Silver Strawberry drinks that your ex girlfriend left over a long time ago. Thanks ex girlfriend...

On a side note, I think I am going to change my MySpace tag to say, "He's not a man, he's a loving machine".

A serious post…

That’s right ladies and gentleman, I am not afraid to admit when I have an addiction. I am not like some of those people who deny their crack habits only to be seen behind the alley hooking up and doing crazy sexual stuff with some old man for crack money. I am not like those people you see on TV who preach about how bad addictions are only to be an addict of something themselves. You see folks I am just not like those people. I am the kind of guy who comes out and admits when he has an addiction and that is what I am doing now. I have been struggling with this addiction for a while now and I am sure most of my friends have noticed the change in me since I got hooked on to my addiction. It has kept me up late at night, it has made me miss days of work and it has made me on edge a lot lately. This addiction is something that if I am not able to get a hold of and get help with, it has the potential to destroy me. I am aware of this and I am soon going to be going into treatment for my addiction. The addiction that I have is that I am totally, absolutely, 100% in every way shape and form addicted to Posh Spice.

For the past 10 years I would say I have been struggling with this addiction. In fact ever since the movie Spice World came out and I bought the video for my girlfriend at the time I have been addicted to her. She is in my opinion one of the greatest things God has every created. Of course she had to go and marry that douche David Beckham and then he had to have the nerve to go and cheat on my Posh. That's what I don't get, the dude has one of the hottest girls in the world and he cheats on her. See ladies; let that be a lesson to you. When you find a good guy who treats you great and gives the world to you; a guy who is willing to lay down and bend over backwards to make you laugh and smile; a guy who may not be the best looking bloke out there but one who at least has all his teeth much like myself, you better hold on to him because most guys are dicks and treat girls like crap... but I digress.

Either way, Posh has got it going on and I would like to formally, right now, in front of God and all my readers ask Posh for her hand in marriage. So Posh, will you marry me? You can just leave me a comment on this blog with your answer.

Man I wish I knew...

So I am at a Mexican restaurant eating and drinking a big ass margarita, yes I have a good buzz right now, and I really wish I spoke Mexican because the guy singing the song on the radio sure does sound like he has something important to say.

Russell-P on midgets...

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Movin on up baby...

That's right folks, me and my lil ole band is movin on up in the world. This just in we are going to be playing the Lone Star Rally festival in Galveston Texas on November 2nd. This is the largest bike rally in Texas and they are expecting 250,000 people. Not to shabby I would say. Go take a look at the page and see who is on top.

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Russell-P is going through the hardest time in his life...

This truly is the hardest time in my life right now. The topic that I am dealing with is really hard for me to grasp and come to terms with. I have gone through some tuff times in my life before and this is by far the hardest. My father has had cancer, I have been dumped by a girl I lived with and who I wanted to marry, I have no clue what I want to do with my life and I have a huge fear of rejection and yet this topic now is even bigger then all of those put together. This topic I am dealing with is going to require a lot of time on my part to just sit back and think about and that is really scary. The thing that I am trying to deal with now that is so hard for me is the fact that I am trying to grow my hair out and it's not working very well.

That's right folks, it's freaking driving me crazy right now. I am trying to grow out my hair and right now it freaking looks like a giant mushroom is on my head. A freaking giant mushroom. I ask you how am I supposed to meet a girl with my hair looking like a mushroom? I mean I am a single guy, what girl wants to hook up with a mushroom head?

I know what I want my hair to look like, either this here or this here, but it's a matter of getting it there. I have tried to grow my hair out in the past but I never get very far because I get pissed off at how bad it looks while it is growing out. Either way it's really becoming furstrating for me. I see all these kids with super sweet hair the way I want mine and it makes me mad at them. I mean damn it, I want hair like that also! Oh well, I suppose I will just tough it out and keep on keeping on with growing it out. Maybe in 6 months I will have it as long as I want it.

The greatest gift of all...

So I have decided something about the next relationship that I have, if and when I have one. I have decided that I know what I will give every one of my girlfriends for their birthdays. Now I know what you are saying, “Russell-P, you are going to give the same gift to every girlfriend you ever have”? Well yes I am and let me tell you why. I am going to give them the greatest gift that any one man can give a woman. This gift says more then diamonds, this gift will last longer then flowers, and this gift will bring a tear to their eye like when you get hit in the face with a baseball bat. This gift that I will give them is the gift of me. I will for now on be giving every one of my girlfriends a vile of my frozen sperm.

That’s right. I mean what gift can say “I love you” more then a vile of ones sperm? I figure I will give it to them and then later on down the road if they ever feel like having a little Russell-P they can always thaw it out and go for it.

Of course this could always end up backfiring and biting me in the ass. I mean lets say I get married and then *BAM* out of nowhere I have like 15 girls coming up to my wife and me asking for child support. That could really kind of suck. But you know what, that will be my way to ensure that Russell-P will live on forever.

I suppose some of my girlfriends might not want to keep a vile of my sperm in their freezer forever. Can you keep it in your freezer? I figure if a freezer is good enough to keep a hot pocket frozen then it is good enough to keep my man gold alive. For those who don’t know “Man Gold” is now the term I am using for sperm. Well if a girl does not want it I guess that is the first sign that I should not be with them and they are not the one. I figure I could get it gift wrapped in a nice little package, maybe take it to Foleys and have their gift wrap department do it for me, and give it to them as a killer birthday gift. I mean that’s really saying I love you if you do that.

Oh well, I guess I will have to see how this works out on my next girlfriend. I will keep you guys updated on this and let you know if they like the gift or not.

Russell-P's Gay Pride Song...

So I was asked to write a song for the gay pride movment and this is what I came up with.

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The new Russell-P...

So I have been thinking about a lot of stuff lately and I have decided it is time to make a change. For those who knew me back in the day I used to be a very take charge kind of guy. I was the guy who would always be the leader of whatever it was I was doing. After I graduated college and started my job I started to get to where I was becoming increasingly more and more passive. I would just tend to sit in the back and just let other people run the show and whatever happened to me was because of their decisions. Well that's not the way it is going to be anymore.

I have decided to turn me back to the old me. I am no longer going to wait around and let people decide how my life is going to unfold. I am no longer going to sit on the sidelines and watch my life pass by. I am going to take action and get in the game.

In my last relationship I became super passive. Not because my ex was controlling or bossy because she really wasn't, it was just a change that I had made and I did not know how to fix. Well now I know how and I am going to fix it. I am going to become the one in charge and take action with things. I am going to be the one who makes all the final decisions and who is going to take my life and make it a great thing.

I know I am a great guy with much to offer people and I know that one day I am going to make some lady very happy. Especially now that I am getting back to where I should be and taking charge. For all those people who decided to leave me and take a step back and out of my life, well I feel really bad for you because I am now becoming exactly what you always wanted me to be and you had your chance to be with me and you let it go.

I know that in my life I am going to achieve great things and live a wonderful life. I also know that when I have a wife and a family I am going to be the strong Christian leader of that family and take charge and care of them and make sure they have the best life possible. These are things that I know I am going to do. I know now that I am about to achieve some great things in my life and my life is about to change for the better. For all those who stuck by my side and are still with me, get ready for one hell of a ride because I do not forget those people who have helped me out in the past and I plan on taking you all with me to the top. And for those people who made the decision that they did not want me in their life any more or did not want to be with me, well I feel bad for you because you just lost one hell of a guy out of your life. There are not a lot of guys in this world who treat women like I do and who give people the respect I do. One day you will realize what it is that you have thrown away, and you will regret it.

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